Mixed Emotions

Why is it that sometimes even when we get what we want, we’re still not happy about it!?!?!

I have known several other moms that have gone through this same experience, so I know I’m not alone and that its not simply some postpartum hormonal thing. But today I took Johnny (turned 4 in December) to our school districts Speech Therapist for an evaluation. I actually took him last year as well but then they said he was doing fine for his age. But nothing has has really changed since then so when we went to his pediatrician for his 4 year check up, the Dr again suggested an evaluation. So anyway, today was his appointment. We arrived just as all the preschool students arrived and filled the hallway where we were waiting for the therapist. So when she came down to meet us, Johnny really wouldn’t talk to her. I don’t if he was overwhelmed or still nervous that I had been lying to him and that he might actually be getting more shots at this “appointment.” But I started to worry that he may not cooperate for this evaluation. But once we got into her room where it was quiet. He pretty quickly opened up. They went through a book of photos of a puppy with many different items and she asked what the items were or what the puppy was doing. It took about 15 minutes and he stayed focused and answered all her questions very well. And just as I suspected, he does now qualify for speech therapy. Just wanted I wanted, right? So why am I so bummed about it??
I don’t know but I do know he needs it and she was very sure that he would progress very quickly once we get started. He will go 2 times a week for a half an hour. But because we have to take him there and its only during school hours, it will wait until the fall. There are less than two months left of school and I just don’t see how I can fit getting him there into my schedule and still spend anytime at work. Hopefully by the fall we’ll have 2 working vehicles and it won’t be an issue at all. In the mean time she is going to get some information together for us to be working on at home until the fall.


You know I didn’t really think that 30 was anywhere too close to being too old to have a baby, I mean really Tom is 46! But toting Bryan around is kicking my butt. I have GOT to start working out to get into shape or he’s going to kill me. Last night when I went to move him from laying in my arm to up on my shoulder, something snapped in the other shoulder. And it still hurts like crazy today. I’ve been trying to work it out and it will feel OK but then when I am just trying to do normal things it will hit a position that practically brings tears to my eyes. Hope this passes FAST!

I don’t know that this does him justice, he got crabby before I could get a full body shot that included his big ole thighs but thought I’d include a pic to show what my Big guy looks like at over 16 pounds!


Since we scheduled Bryan’s baptism I have assumed he would wear the outfit that both of the other boys wore. It was a cute little white tuxedo my mom had bought for Timmy. He was a pretty big boy himself and the thing says its a size 6-9 month so I figured I was pretty safe. But the night before last I pulled it out to try it on. I immediately notice its has a spit up stain on it I hadn’t remembered but figure I still have time to get it cleaned. But then when I try it on there is just no way its able to button around chubbies chins!
So yesterday I head to Baby Depot, which is where my mom got the original tux. Apparently these things are sized a bit different because for them a 9-12 month size is for 16-20 pounds. So my 2 month old will be wearing a 12month size outfit. And the only thing they had in that size was a tux with tails and cumber bun! Its super cute but its a bit much, especially compared to what I will be wearing. But I went ahead and got it. I tried it on him when I got home. The cumber bun is too big and the pants could be hemmed a good 6 inches. But it will work and he looks sooo cute.


OK so I’ve obviously known for awhile that I was outnumbered gender wise. And it’s been awhile now since I’ve realized that boys are really and truly just wired different. They have a sense of humor, those of us of the female form just don’t seem to get. But I have to admit I was still a little surprised when my newest little man reminded me of this the other day.
I’m sitting in bed with the older boys reading their bedtime stories when I begin to heard some odd noises. Upon further review…it’s my oh so graceful husband belching at my 2 month old son who is in turn laughing the first real laughs of his life. YES son #3 finds gas hysterical ALREADY!
I am definitely going to have to get a female pet or something!
##edited to include a photo of his enjoyment of gas##

Timmy and Johnny news

My big boys seem to have adjusted fairly well to their baby brother. They both enjoy him and for the most part are fairly patient with having the attention divided one more way. Our biggest struggle with Timmy is that he doesn’t smother Bryan with all his love and hugs.

Aside from that the boys haven’t been up to a whole lot until recently.

Timmy is in his last year of preschool which he absolutely loves and was not happy when he had to take a whole week off for spring break. He is such a smarty pants too. He keeps busy at home by coloring and working on work books pretty often. Of course he spends a good amount of time driving his brother crazy and also spending time with his new love, my old N64 video game unit, which Tom hooked up to an old TV and put in their bedroom. They have had V Smile games for a while but this is the first time they’ve played much “real” video games. But whenever possible he’d rather be outside or out at a play land, where he’s really gotten to be quite social and makes friends where we go with other kids (or at least tries). But he is still a constant ball of energy and tends to drive us a bit nutty on a daily basis. For that reason and in hopes of him finding some self control, both boys started martial arts last week. They are going here Master’s Martial Arts if you’re interested. They instructor has a doctorate in Theology so its martial arts with a Christian twist. The boys seem really excited about it so we’ll see how they do.
And next month they will both start T Ball practice, which is always a good time to watch!
Aside from the above, Johnny is pretty much home. He has not yet started preschool. Although he swears he wants to he can’t until he figures out the whole potty issue which we’re still struggling with. He’s not exactly where I’d expect him to be with writing or recognizing letter etc but its certainly not a lack of intelligence. He’s a smart guy, just not too interested in learning that stuff like Timmy was. He’s much rather curl up with you and be read to or watch a movie together. He is still having some issues with speech too. There are several sounds that he just does not make and as he’s starting to talk more and more and faster and faster its actually getting tougher sometimes to understand him. So we’re going back for another speech evaluation this week at the school.

Bryan at 2 months old

My BIG boy was 2 months old on March 29th.
And he went to the Dr for his two month check up on April 2nd. He is off the chart for his weight now at a whopping 16 pounds. And let me tell you, if you hold him for any length of time you will feel everyone of those pounds!!

He seems to be right on track for all of his development milestones.

He is tooo cute and is really starting to smile and develop his own little personality. Unfortunately that personality is much needier than either of the other two boys ever were. He does NOT let us put him down too often. During the day he even prefers to be held while he sleeps. Luckily, he is getting into somewhat of a routine at night. Not that he’s sleeping anywhere close to through the night. But on average he goes to sleep somewhere between 11-1 and sleeps until somewhere between 3-4am. He gets up and eats and once he’s gas free (this sometimes takes close to an hour) he will go right back to sleep until about 7 or 7:30.

dang it

A friend of ours from church has a daughter who is too stinking cute. So cute, in fact, that she just won Little Miss Illinois. Now she’s off to the national competition and for that she needs some new photos. Because her mom likes the photos I take of the boys she asked if I would take these photos for her. I was totally honored and excited to do this. So this Sunday we went to this cute little park by our church, which is also where we went to do wedding party photos when Tom and I got married. She looked super cute and was so tough in the chilly wind in her sleeveless dresses. But I am so disappointed with how the photos came out simply because of how bright the sun was! We’re going to redo the photos because these just aren’t the quality she needs, and aren’t exactly what I need to be doing if I’m ever going to seriously get into photography.

But I’m hoping maybe if I post these I can someday (hopefully sooner than later) look back and be so proud of the progress I’ve made and how much I’ve learned in this area.

Of course she is still adorable and a fabulous model as you can see…


Again, its not exactly Easter anymore but figured I’d put pictures and a bit about what we did to be able to look back on.

Our Easter this year was total chaos and also a really quiet day. In the morning the boys woke up fairly early, excited to see what the bunny had brought them during the night. After making them stay in my bedroom while I wiped the sleep from my eyes and grabbed the camera they were allowed to start searching for eggs. They did pretty good, I think there was only one we found two weeks later. (Luckily we use plastic eggs!) The eggs were filled with both chocolate and money. After getting to rip through their baskets to see what else they’d got (more candy and they each got a movie~ The Bee Movie and Enchanted) they of course wanted to eat some candy. After having a breakfast of chocolate doughnuts I didn’t think more chocolate was wise at 8am. But Tom asked if I was allowed to eat my candy on Easter morning…OK fine. Just don’t anyone eat enough to throw up please. But THEN we had to try to switch gears and get everyone dressed and out of the house to go to church. That was where the fun stopped. It got pretty ugly before we made it out the door and didn’t get particularly better at church either. But we all survived through service (the boys only go to service on Christmas and Easter, otherwise they are in Sunday School during worship).
Then the quiet art started. We ALL crawled into my bed and started The Bee Movie. I saw the first 30 seconds or so. But I’m told its a cute movie. I slept away the next 3 hours. Finally I got up and we went out to dinner at Applebee’s. The original plan was to go to my mom’s but she was feeling really sick from chemo still so that was called off. And I’m not exactly Rachel Ray and I really don’t do holiday meals so Thank God for Applebee’s.
So anyway here’s some pics:
Look what the bunny left in MY basket 🙂

Bryan slept through all the egg and basket excitement.

All three boys with their eggs
Bryan is his outfit for church

Timmy and Johnny

Timmy and Bryan
Johnny and Bryan

St Patty’s Day Pictures

Ok so it’s obviously a little after St Patty’s Day but I still wanted to get the pictures up here. We didn’t do anything special on St Patty’s Day at all. I swore I’d at least make the boys some green milk like my mom used to do but totally forgot. And almost forgot pics until jsut ast he boys were going to bed. Which is why they are shirtless, they were grubby and dirty but I didn’t feel like finding a decent shirt just for a picture. Tom swears they are always naked in pic but its soo not true 🙂

Bryan 7 weeks old Johnny 4 years old Timmy 5 years old

It’s official!

Well, I finally have an official blog.
I decided I want to write more regularly to be able to remember more of the fun and even the frustration that is life with 3 boys 5 years old and under!
May take me a bit to figure this thing out completely so bare with me. But I hope to include it as a link in all my emails so all our friends and family can easily stay updated on all the goings on of our crazy life!
And if you have a blog, let me know and I’ll be sure to add it (when I figure that out!) so I can keep up with you too!